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Hey , it's me. Again. I know it just been two weeks since my last post, but I love writing so no one can stop me , hehe . 


I just want to tell you that you should never give up on yourself. Somehow, someway you will rise again even though it does take time but it doesn't matter right?

I miss my old life, 
 I tried to live it again, but it just won't work. I won't feel the same. 
The same happiness that use to winged me. 
BUT, 
My life right now, I shouldn't take it for granted, 
I should and I am grateful for everything I have, every chink of armor that I never thought I needed the most, 
All blessings that showered me, 
I can only offer you my gratitude. 
I admitted that I was happier then but now I am much stronger than you will ever thought, 
I am not that innocent and ignorant child I used to be. 
Every time you try to break me with your rust-covered weapon, the one who crash and fade way is not 
 me but you.  
Probably I am already broken into pieces and darling you can't break what already broken.

                                                                                                                                     
   



                                                                                             ms.whitehorse


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  1. hey, ana i hope youre okay :) let all the positivity comes to youuu

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