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Hi. How are you guys doing? Me? Well ..I'm doing just fine...even though it is not true at all...



These days, I am keeping myself busy.. examination, competition, and sort of thing...I know that I am not doing fine at all...but what can I do? It's like I've been trying to escape from this dungeon, this sort of dark world but I just can't..but I can pretend that I did... Loneliness is not a stranger to me anymore since 4 years ago. Loneliness is like my best friend...I go places with it... I also really hate myself because I can't defend myself...Whenever people hurt me, use me, toy me, I just sit there and do absolutely nothing about it...I just don't want to hurt anyone because I know how does it feel when you got hurt .. Luckily, for most people they got someone to rely on to..someone that they can trust to...They got like a bunch of friends that stick to them during thick and thin moment..I'm not saying that I don't have any..I did..and I appreciate them ..Just, I don't believe anyone in this world...I don't..I'm not just saying it, I meant it...



I keep searching for the reason why am I being so depressed, lonely, unhappy, hopeless, insecure, and stuff.It turns out that not my environment needs to be blamed on but just simply me because I'm alive...4 years ..I can't live like this anymore...I just can't...The only problem is me .. being alive.



If something happens to me, I want them to know that I suffered enough..and it's not anyone's fault...



I just hope that this is not my last goodbye...

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