c a m e l l i a g r e e c e

 I have tried. And I'll try harder in everything. That is my promise and you are the witnesses. If I fail, go tell them, The fancy tale about my fight, How I dived in and breathe underwater, How I recovered from anguish underneath my skin, And shriek the rage from my thorns, If only I fail. I am trying harder in everything, Shutting down my dark thoughts inside my head, Pacing back and forth finding an escape, Running with my worn-out dress reaching for the light, I can hear my voices louder than ever, Fighting with my bewildered eyes, Let alone the snakes lingering around my wrist, Because I know the snakes are nowhere near to break my spirit.

Hey , it's me. Again. I know it just been two weeks since my last post, but I love writing so no one can stop me , hehe .  I just want to tell you that you should never give up on yourself. Somehow, someway you will rise again even though it does take time but it doesn't matter right? I miss my old life,   I tried to live it again, but it just won't work. I won't feel the same.  The same happiness that use to winged me.  BUT,  My life right now, I shouldn't take it for granted,  I should and I am grateful for everything I have, every chink of armor that I never thought I needed the most,  All blessings that showered me,  I can only offer you my gratitude.  I admitted that I was happier then but now I am much stronger than you will ever thought,  I am not that innocent and ignorant child I used to be.  Every time you try to break me with your rust-covered weapon, the one who crash and fade w...

Hi. How are you guys doing? Me? Well ..I'm doing just fine...even though it is not true at all... These days, I am keeping myself busy.. examination, competition, and sort of thing...I know that I am not doing fine at all...but what can I do? It's like I've been trying to escape from this dungeon, this sort of dark world but I just can't..but I can pretend that I did... Loneliness is not a stranger to me anymore since 4 years ago. Loneliness is like my best friend...I go places with it... I also really hate myself because I can't defend myself...Whenever people hurt me, use me, toy me, I just sit there and do absolutely nothing about it...I just don't want to hurt anyone because I know how does it feel when you got hurt .. Luckily, for most people they got someone to rely on to..someone that they can trust to...They got like a bunch of friends that stick to them during thick and thin moment..I'm not saying that I don't have any..I did..and I a...

                                  The weather seems good, My brother puts on a hood, Taking one letter out of cry, Asking him the reason why. His smile like a sunshine, Lighting up the darkest shrine, His eyes like a jewel, Wondering why people are cruel. He fought endlessly, Then smile brightly, Left  treasures behind, Pinned the memories rewind. Spring  was his favorite, Winter when his life gets hard, He sang the loveliest word, Now the flashbacks break my heart. -ms.whitehorse This poem dedicates to that person who loved music more than anyone else, who was a brilliant poet, who sang sweeter than any birds.

She fell hard to the ground, Hearing whispers from the crowd, 'She's not good enough' that's what they said. Her man, she really thought he was her man. She gave him her heart and her soul, But it was wasted. He crashed them away like a broken glass, Glass of her. She's drowning in the Mariana Trench, She couldn't swim, struggle to the top, Mermaids sing to her a lovely wisdom, 'O darling you're a fighter, you were born to be a fighter, Suddenly,she could feel the pressure of water, Pushing her to the air, She woke up on the cold hard ground, She started to breathe again. They said we shouldn't trust anyone, Even if the shadow leave us when we're in the dark, One that she loves the most throwing fireballs at her, She hides in a tiny hut, Then she looks into the broken glass, She saw a reflection of someone that she can trust. by: ms.whitehorse

What's up, guys? So this is not a poem, obviously, this is just a random post. So a lot of things  happened these days. Dramas, issues, and sort of things and I'm doing pretty well I guess.  Mark my words, things aren't getting better, it just you will getting stronger.  I'm working on something actually, but I'm not gonna talk about that. It could be about relationship, music or poem, you know.  There's also one thing I realized.  The more I know someone, the more I know that I should better off be alone.  So I take my time, observing every single thing around.  By the way, have you guys listen to Taylor Swift's new album, Reputation? If you haven't yet, then you should.  NOW!  My favorite song from the album is Call It What You Want.  It kinda gives you magical vibes haha.  Gorgeous sounds pretty nice too.  I really like how the whole album is lyrically and emotionally co...

One should know how mental disorder feels like, Not forcing you to have one but try to understand one, Dive deep till the Mariana Trench of yourself, The pressure, the demons,  the monster, The only cure is faith, To be alive and free again. Sometimes it doesn't have to be demons or monster, It just yourself who bringing you down, Maybe another version of yourself that you may not know of, That always dominating you unconsciously. Day by day, people died because of this, Physically and mentally, All you have to do is offer a hand, To save them from the depth of the sea.